♫♪THE SOUNDS OF HAPPINESS♫♪

When I am feeling down, I throw on my ear phones, now that's happiness to my heart. Music brings out the inner beauty in me. Music is another passion of mine. Not just any kind of music, but Gospel, inspirational and R&b. When I hear music, I feel like a kid in the candy store. (well I should say the sneaker store) lol. Music is more than words and beats. It is a legacy of different cultures, diversity and togetherness, but also separation. We need togetherness as society and as a whole, but first we need closure.

A MESSAGE FROM JOYCE MEYERS

On this day, you should celebrate what an unbelievable life you had so far: The accomplishments, the many blessings and yes even the hardships because they served to make you stronger. Just as a gem can not be polished without friction, neither can a life be perfect without trails. acknowledge your life, Praise God

ONE IN THE SAME

For the many reasons my heart won't stop beating, for the many reasons the pain won't go away. For the many reasons I smile and for the many reasons I cry. I feel like I am trapped in life, when all it takes is one bullet. I thought I meant something to you, but I guess I am worthless, just like I am worthless to my "MOTHER". The unforgettable nights and the impossible mornings when I cried out to God. I cried and cried so much, it felt like my soul was well rested. As I write each letter and each word, as my emotions spill out, my pen moves letting me know that there is a way out. I feel like I am not alone. I know that their are others out there going through the hurt, pain and agony, I just wish that I could be with them.

B Train

As I sit on this B train I think and try to wonder about the possibilities of the reason I am going through this. Do i deserve another chance, do I deserve to be loved? Everyone deserves another chance, everyone deserves to be loved. If that is so, then why do I feel this way? The lights are on around me, but yet I am still in darkness. The train stops, but I wish that it keeps going so that I can make it to this place I call home. Why have you forsaken me, why did you leave me to die? I am in a world full of people, but yet I stand alone. I want to make it to my safe haven, I want to make it to heaven. I just want to be one. I am here living in this world, but my soul is lost in this world. My soul cries out for help and love, but I get no response. As i sit here on the B train and think about the possibilities of a new life, life after death.

Love Beneath My Will

How could I love someone with so much power, but love myself with so little. How could I continue to be trapped when Jesus died for me. Why do I feel like my love is bouncing off of the walls. Why can't I be free from all the hurt and misery. Why do I feel bound from freedom. Why can't I take these shackles off of my feet. THE LOVE BENEATH MY WILL. I have no control over love, but love has control over me. I just want to be FREE!