MY SMILE BEHIND MY TEARS

As I sit back and realize how far I have made it, I can actually smile. It was dark, lonely and cold. My world didn't exist because I was stuck in my mother's world. I was still in a fetal position wishing someone would pick me up and hold me, wrap me up in their arms, but most of all love me. I wanted someone to rescue me, but no one wanted to take that responsibility so I was left alone to find my way through life by alone. Once I was able to lift my head and hold it steady, I knew that my journey through life was going to be rocky, so I put on all of my pads and started my journey. I failed a few times, but I was able to get back up and redeem myself. I knew that if I didn't take my life into my own hands, it could only get worse. THE SMILE BEHIND MY TEARS. I am smiling as I write this poem because I know that I am strong, a warrior, a survivor, a soldier, growth, happy, outgoing, wise, beautiful, humble,but most of all I am LOVED, THE SMILE BEHIND MY TEARS.

JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS

Just one of those days when I wish I could look into your eyes. When I wish I could smile deep down inside. Just one of those days where my feet says go, but my heart says no. Trying this thing called patience, but the clock is constantly ticking. Just one of those days when I want to be free, free from you and me. Taking one day at a time, trying to re evaluate my mind. It's just one of those days.