B Train

As I sit on this B train I think and try to wonder about the possibilities of the reason I am going through this. Do i deserve another chance, do I deserve to be loved? Everyone deserves another chance, everyone deserves to be loved. If that is so, then why do I feel this way? The lights are on around me, but yet I am still in darkness. The train stops, but I wish that it keeps going so that I can make it to this place I call home. Why have you forsaken me, why did you leave me to die? I am in a world full of people, but yet I stand alone. I want to make it to my safe haven, I want to make it to heaven. I just want to be one. I am here living in this world, but my soul is lost in this world. My soul cries out for help and love, but I get no response. As i sit here on the B train and think about the possibilities of a new life, life after death.